Month: August 2019

Sunday was really bad, about as bad as it could have gotten, I really hate myself, I don’t know why I am here, but I don’t want to go home. I am so tired of being alone and the knowledge that I can not really be with anyone and very few people want to be with me or even care

So its Saturday afternoon, and really its time to shit or get off the pot. I can not stand people who are so ignorant of their own actions, its embarrassing to watch, and whats worse is when you are in a country which is not your and you have to appoligize for on of their own because of their actions

There are certain things one repeats over and over again and breaking the cycle is the hardest thing to do, and this is where I am at the moment, I have realized that I am stuck in the same abusive cycle that I have have been in for such a long time. I allow people to order me around and

So it’s the afternoon and we sit upon Zianson hill and think about what it is we want to do and what it is that I should do and the loneliness creeps up again, and we continue to think that it would be easier if I just left this world, there must be something more than this but we know

8/11/2019 9:58:48 AM Its no better or worse, its just the way I live. Nightmares last night, about what I am doing and about my cats, I am half way around the world away from my house and my pets because, I really don’t know anymore. I need to  get away, because I am lonely and I want to be

So here it is, after all this time I am about to write what I have been thinking for years, this will eventually be my suicide note, or book as it goes. At the age of 52 I find myself fighting daily with depression and the idea of being alone all the time, the constant remind of things past and

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